Remembering 2009

Today's date is special Year ago I was in Vapi. And what a year it has been since then. Year of my biggest achievement and my biggest failure. Am I proud of it or am I ashamed of it? I am not too sure.

Of my 100 years of life (yes, I am an optimist) it will be one of the memorable year. I turned 25 this year, a quarter of life. As much as girls crib about being half-way to 50, I am excited to be 25 because I know my life at 50 will be an achievement I am looking forward to. So only half-way there. It was very special to celebrate it with Reena, Shivani, Nishit and Sulabh. Within 6 months I made so good friends that I discovered what I love most; people around me. My friends have really special way of making me feel special.

2009 a year of celebrations: I was admitted to one of my dream school for MBA - Carnegie Mellon University, moved to USA to live my dream independent life and starting on my journey to discover myself. My biggest achievement turned failure, my engagement to Nisarg. Many questions were raised but I am sure the answers lies in future.

What more lies in future is yet to be discovered but I believe 2010 will be another exciting year when I will find an internship and start on my career. I really wish I could fast forward this segment and watch what I am doing next year at this time.

Let the new spin begin..

Randomness of a fool

Fooled by Randomness is book on market performance. Now it is a very complicated issue that I feel removed from but there is something very personal about this post.

Today I am feeling absolutely random. It started with a panic attack on "What I am going to do". Now I do care a lot about this question as I think last few years I have been drifting and this MBA is a decisive step towards my dream. So what dream? And 2.5 years at Barclays has helped me arrive so far. So what drifting? Bottomline, there is much to me today than usual.

First of all I am feeling random. What I mean is random energy bursts and excitement to do much more than I am doing.

Thank you for visiting my theif.

"The thief

left it behind —

The moon at the window.

Ryokan


This is just what Ryokan wrote after the thief had gone. The whole story is beautiful…. One night a thief entered into Ryokan’s small hut. Ryokan had only one blanket which he used day and night to cover his body. That was his only possession. He was lying down but he was not asleep, so he opened his eyes and saw the thief entering. He felt great compassion for him because he knew there was nothing in the house. “If the poor fellow had informed me before, I could have begged something from the neighbors and kept it here for him to steal. But now what can I do?”

Seeing that there was nothing, that he had entered into a monk’s hut, the thief started to go out. Ryokan could not resist. He gave his blanket to the thief. The thief said, “What are you doing? You are standing naked. It is a very cold night!”

He said, “Don’t be worried about me. But don’t go empty-handed. I have enjoyed this moment, you have made me feel like a rich man. Thieves usually enter the palaces of emperors. By your entering here my hut has also become a palace, I have also become an emperor. In my joy this just a gift.”

Even the thief felt sorry for him and he said, “No, I cannot receive this gift because you don’t have anything. How you are going to pass the night? It is so cold, and it is getting colder!”

Ryokan said with tears in his eyes, “You remind me again and again of my poverty. If it was in my power I would have taken hold of the full moon and given it to you.”

When the thief left he wrote in his diary:

The thief
left it behind —

The moon at the wind"

Paradox Within

It has been so long since I have written. I started this year with idea of writing daily but that has gone to dust. Still I manage to pen something over last week and I think its worth posting.

Paradox within:

Sometimes I feel like loving with all I have

But I realize there is nothing within

I try to fill it up with all the love I have

But something refuses to empty within

How do I explain to people I have

When I fail to understand the paradox within…

Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) Lyrics

Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) Lyrics

I heard this song on my way back home today. I was collecting my transcript from SMU for Carnegie Mellon and driving through the SMU on the Victoria Street... I heard this song and I reminded myself to find the song. But again, in rush of work I forgot the song till I was hitting the bed. So I woke up and decided to blog this.

As I move to USA, I dream to live in New York, and Nisarg plans to live in California, so well - I will live upto this song. Brilliant song :) Must hear. If not must read lyrics.

Caught Offside!

Caught Offside!

Personal choice dude!

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People's objection to homosexuality fascinates me. Sex is after all a matter of personal choice. so why such uproar and objection again two matured adults! I would like to know what are the social repercussions of such relationship. I don't understand it?

For that matter I hold same opinion for anyone personal life. You want to have 10 or 1 relationship - its your call. I can't seem to judge people based on this criteria. I just get little peeved when people being morality BS in here.

The sense of proprietary for people annoys me. No wonder relationship 'ties' you down where I believe it should liberate you and allow you to be yourself. Osho had wonderful article on it... I will try to dig it out for my records.